march

I am here
And you are there
Physically together
I am aware
My mind you see
Plays tricks on me
You’re here
but it tells me
You don’t want to be
I try to ignore
and challenge
These thoughts
But at times they’re too grand
They devour they abhor
Me.

How can I produce
Such misery?

How can I explain
What I don’t myself understand?
To my brother, sister, mother
Father, friend, colleague, lover?

They all reprimand me
For this inability to see
To believe there is
Love
Without
Self pity
To believe that they
Love
Me for me

Despite

Well
All my…shite

I want to smile without sadness
I want to remember my worth
I want to feel secure
Not practise this self hurt

Please
Thoughts
Please
Leave me be
You overwhelm my joy
You usurp my expressions
You are living MY life

I can’t let this be

I want to be free

Free from me

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